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you make me sick.
i want you and i'm hating it.

at the rate i'm going, potato's so gonna tick. Like i care. spent the morning slumbering away before trotting of fer french (went wohooo) with zu,syaf and mal.we were late and the two of them were on the comps at moelc. and i DID french hw.like wow.
just got back from lepak-ing with darling Pinky under my block. sorry, does that seem mat-ish?well it wasn't. we were buying foooood (weeeheeew) before that.cool.seems like everyone's going manifestasi.maybe i'll cancel sending arch off to L.A.
bew.bed calling. i've lost the will to do *that*.

it never fails to amaze me how you could still smile despite me being hard on you.  sometimes i wish i could run to you and tell you things i could never really say. I just wanna wipe the tears from your eyes and make you see...that i can never get over you getting over me.

i will finish the essays and go to class on time.*repeats 20 times*.
*opens eyes* *stops pretending*.see. without external repelling forces i will stay hooked onto this comp and will not budge for class.  As you can see this ALWAYS happens when i get my hands on the pc at moelc. and i shall prove you (glances at *someone*) wrong. This, and my forseen unpleasant prep prelim results, will keep me rooted at home or wherever i'll be  where there are pcs and i shall not go out with my friends till saturday. *runs for life* .
yeah.

weeee~ Happy Belated Racial Harmony Day. Like everyone i know looked great today. and i don't regret buying this black silky sari yesterday because well i simply lovit and waking up at an agonizing hour just so mal's mom could tie it fer me was worth it.wearing a sari; that's a first.=)
FINALLY watched mean girls with jx, syaf and nad. Like we've been wanting (sheepish sorry heh). Guilt nagged at me throughout the movie but i felt tons better after that while talking to jx. Loike, yeah.Let'd do another one sometime soon.
went fer training after soooo long just to find i was without kylie AND lisa. hrmpfh. now *i'm* complaining. contrary to my belief, sparring wasn't all that bad. that gurl who couldn't control her limbs and seemed like she couldn't understand the meaning of no-contact sparring was actually a good partner. well the best was yet to be.This red-belt uncle tired me out so much that it felt like a real game. He refused to let me slow down and well, i learnt.=) he told me something good and well, i don't think i'll be missing practices for a long, long time.i hope. heh.=)
bleargh.i need ice-cream.bad.

Happy Birthday Akmal
you'll always be my cutest baby and i will always dread it everytime july 23rd comes around. No matter how much i DO NOT want you to grow up and get influenced by naughty boys later, I know you'll make a fine young man.you shine in my life.love you kiddo~!

you make me smile.=)

AHHHHHH.finallay.thought i was doomed when the comps at moelc actually restricted access to blogger.budden. when there's a will, there's a way.I MISS THE NET!!! my computer of a hundred years decided to conk up recently and everytime me and my sister try to get online we end up having a gurl talk instead. Which isn't so bad. wooooohooooooooooo. prep prelims ova~ *dances around* history was the last paper tho it didn't count because i came in totalleh unprepared and ended up writing this fictitious story about the rise of Bolsheviks in Russia and drawing the back of Chuan Jian. Yup. That was one hour well spent.
how cool. I found farah on friendster. And also, zulbab like  whoa. me and zu were having fits laughing when we saw his userpic. because of umm security reasons, i'm restraining myself from publishing his link. Like, wotevar. it's zulbab.
my mum shoved me my bill yesterday. i saw it and was like " SHIT!". i had/have no idea how i could send out 2000 messages within one month. dear friends, please restrain me from using my phone too much in front of you guys. thankies.
woooits. the pics are up. SYAF! please feel free to save them.hahahah.funneh. i will backdate on that day we went and took all those crazay photos.woooots!

again, i'm not in french.again, i'm away at the comp. but i'm with nad attempting to study geog.yeah.GEOG. 4 down, ten more to go.or something. going urm..ok i guess.note: ok isn't GREAT.so boo.

hola~
i feel like screaming my bum off.*silence*.there.for you.
my eyes are fighting to stay open. the seemingly non-existent neat-freak in me decided to nag in the middle of the night (or morning) and i just felt like cleaning my room.so i did.apart from junk which i've junked,i found:
1) cash =)
2) purple sanitary pads
3) mags from days of yore
4) my seashells!
5) dusty pictures. had a fun time giggling by myself.
6) unsent raya cards.sorry guys.=P (hey,it's the THOUGHT that counts)
7) some books not worth mentioning
8) brit posters =))))

and my fighter jet posters.never took em out the moment my mum told me to take em down and when i realised nobody fully understood why those stuff amazed me.except maybe farid.he's the only one whom i can argue passionately with about anything from capitals of cities in the world to aircraft models.i miss that dude.
anyway.you should try dig around too.you might just find some lost treasure from the infamous past.hum hum. everyone's slogging.and i don't change. bless my tutor. she came yesterday and will be coming again to see if i've made any progress.and save me from falling.sometimes i think she's the funkiest tutor ever.2 hours can pass with just me asking her where she bought her new jeans or earrings or her gloss or..you get the idea.and math always is easy with her around.

fine, fine.i'll move it.meeting him later.an advanced note for when you read this later: it's sweet of you to come out of your way to put my mind at ease.

i think i have switched to my studious mode after all. mugged a bit with cyn,carrie and carmen while waiting for ain to be done with her oral.i must say quite a feq people were surprised at the sight of that. (ps yanah,phy rocks.there's no denying it).
fuzzylin's mum gave us a ride to ain's crib.how sweet of her.played with kiki the cat while she got her books and we crazied ourself to lj at h.green.it's been like 2 whole years since we did that (mug).felt quite accomplished and productive after the few hours we spent there.was a great time to catch up on each other.she's truly one of the very few peeps i can pour my heart out to.and phy rawks.ahacks.
darn.the song that was playing in fuzz's car is ringing in my head.ain got me addicted by singing it every few minutes.and now i can't help picturing yanah singing it to rizzy.hey,you'd see why if you imagined her do that in this distorted way that i do.the song's dangdut by the way.i'm very afraid i'd get hooked to that.i don't wanna become like asnah and frequent dangdut clubs. *hums*"aww..."*hums*.yikes.it's ringing."awwww...!"

days like this make me appreciate the comfort of home.i feel so domesticated all of a sudden.yeah right.well not only did i enjoy a sick leave today, i feel so loved.=))) thank you darlings who were concerned about my inexistence in school today.look ok stop the stares.this is not part of an elaborate scam of alternate absenteeism among me and my friends.i'm sick.sick sick sick.ok.yes.i was bitten by a radioactive spider while studying physics and then harry osborn came and healed me.*stix out tongue*
goshes.all the hype about spidey has got me wanting to watch it again.and it isn't least cos of that hottie harry.ya, ya.you can drool at peter parker but harry is MINE.been loving him since spidey one.right, ogy, right?=)and of course, i want to watch it again so i can cry properly.there were LOTS of touching moments but on the opening day i was too pissified to cry.
woopdeedoo.decisions,decisions. to go or not to go.that is the question.yikes.studies or interest.why the hell do i have to choose?i'm letting my heart decide.i'm gonna go kick ass.gd day~

it's sunday.boo.
it's not like i don't want to. it's not like i can't.you think i don't wanna emulate you?anything you can do, i can do better,hey~. the only difference lies in the fact that we're not quite each other. and that's why i wanna take it nice...and slow.

long live blogging.hail my comp.in a bid to test my memory and to relive the urges i had to blog these past freaking week,here's what happened before and after i left off on wednesday:

1)my household was one of the -lucky- few which got hit by the massive blackout on tuesday,unknown to zee.that was a first,
and i couldn't help being a jakunist.i was happily writing in mensa's autograph book when i got engulfed in blackness.i gave a scream before scrambling to look out the window.everything was pitch plack,the estate almost looked haunted.bless my hp for it's flashlite function.
what followed that was totally uncommon of a scene off a block with an outage.armed iwth my hp,i flashed it on dudes and dudettes who were already screaming and flasing their torches around happily for the heck of it.jakunists unite!i discovered,too,that i had interesting neighbours.these were a few lines i heard from eavesdropping:"did you pay the electricity bills?","hey!i was watching tv!","why are the people in the lift trapped for so long?","is this a prank?","i can't see you,can you see me?","let's walk the dog".i got into an sms frenzy before hanging outside to look out for the cute one.his dad gave me candles.nyahaha.the things people do.

2)watched spidey on the opening day with mal~!wuz greater than the first.go watch.*pssst with the hand thing*

3)went to klia (yes,klia is a nicer name) with syaf and nad with the intention to mug.hahahahaha.but all we did was get crazy and made fun plans for after mock and the o's.weeeheew~

4)went there again with nad and managed to do some work while people-watching.the moon was superbly beautiful from behind the glass.how nice it would be if there were no obstacles.one obstacle can mean the moon.hrm.

5)here i am,wondering what is to be done of the piles and piles of dusty books lying around.slog?i have to.now?maybe not.but..if you know you can achieve, then say it like this. "i know i can.."

so slum, baby, slum!