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No man is worth your tears,

And when you find the one who is,

He will never make you cry.

thank you nad,syaf,liy,ain,faz,zu and espech nani.for being there for me.i won't forget that till the day i die.Didn't think my heart could easily break.

i've hit the bottom, and there's nowhere else to go but up.well, great things do happen when you least expect it.for ica,it was when landak sent a representative to ask for her number when we skipped math lecture (sorry,achi,hope you're not mad) and stoned at the canteen pouring our heavy hearts out.for me,it was what happened during break.kept me and ellwing smiling throughout the entire day (well,almost).i shoulda taken her seriously when she talked about salleh.apparently he followed her advice and went for glasses-free,and i gotta admit he looked nerdily hot (no,it wasn't him who kept us smiling).i think he's underrated.trust miss notalari to spot the undiscovered hunks.felt so hungry the whole time in school cos i was saving my appetite thinking i was gonna have lunch with him.well,i shoulda known it was just another nothing.howells.french wasn't so bad.bet sam liked it cos of err...the person in front."omg omg where's my ______(inserts name)?!!"---sam while looking for *a pieca paper*.i'm so not used to getting out of class at 730pm to a dark sky.took the bus ride me and nani used to take frm bish to amk when we both took french.memories,memories.=)

you ain't got to got nothin,
it's not what i want.
is that too much to ask for?

Someone said: After the heartbreak, the fights, the anger, and the tears...true love will be waiting for you at the end, and it will be worth it.

i used to believe that.not anymore.

Can you look in my eyes and tell that I've cried a million tears.........just for you?





Sometimes I wish I were a kid again, skinned knees are easier fixed than broken hearts.

can i trust this longing, and take control?

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my granny's one year older today.my lips hurt.ellwing's still unwell. i *still* hate econs.and i won't fall again.

og 22 watched phantom of the opera ytd.*sings* it was fiiiiiineee.rite-o.my "mongolian camel" was snoring at the back,getting a kick outta throwing bitsa popcorn at my hair everytime the phantom opened his mouth to sing.his excuse?"i was sleeping".apparently jonathan and jason fell asleep too.laughter really cures.he's not worth my tears,they say.and i can't agree more now.sorry, sean,for wasting your packet of tissues.teehee.

i have no idea why i woke up at this untimely hour.i love this time of the day/night.i can hear my thoughts loud and clear.and for the first time,none of them's about you.=)

from the bottom of my heart,i should've known.


they were right.
i can't handle this anymore.anymore...
listen here boy.i've been trynna get to you.and i can't convey my feelings anymore.

*see.when i get the chance to leave
you always tell me that you need me
and i'm weak cos i believe you

and i'm mad because i love you
so i try and think that maybe
you would learn appreciate me
but it all remains the same,that
YOU AIN'T NEVER GONNA CHANGE.






show me love doesn't have to hurt, to feel good.

maybe this isn't.cos i never was.

school has successfully kept me occupied and has channelled most of my energy to more meaningful areas like having fun,having fun,and having fun.however, i didn't realise how much i missed someone till he called me.it's beautiful how people you love can touch your heart in the simplest of ways.

tell me, how can i walk away? i don't care what they say.
i'm lovin you anyway...

Verily, with every difficulty, there is relief.

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WOWZER.things get better by the day. =) i had a ball of a time today.needless to say, i missed assembly but sharon was like "J here.Faster come." hahahaha.i took a cab and the first thing i said to an ogl when i reached was "am i in trouble?".he laughed so i assumed i was safe and dashed into the hall.fariha saw me and she had that knowing look.woopsy.sharon reserved a place for me and guess who was RIGHT in front of our group?yes.mr president.gee.we had so much fun shouting/screaming in the hall.
ogl:"18!"
og18:"WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?!"
ogl:"22!"
OG22(mine!):"SHUDDUP LAH!!!!".
yong ming aka goondoo aka looza aka lamer aka our ogl tried making us sing the school song but obviously we (by this i really mean myself and the people i managed to influence) were too busy laughing.but he bonded me,aysha and juanita together.well, i said something really redundant about him and then aysha backed me up.juanita laughed.and we remained laughing hysterically for one hour straight about mr ming.sharon was pissed with me cos i wouldn't stop laughing and entertain her.vanessa tried steadying me and pulling me away from those two TO NO AVAIL.we weren't even listening.damn it's still funny when i think about it."is there anything more than 100?" ,"durian..ouch!", "one clap..lame.two claps..lame!", "superman" .inside jokes. same for treasure hunt.people were busy hunting and we were playing "johan johan johan" stead of "johnny johnny johnny" and of course,being sarcastic and then apologetic towards khairul.damn hilarious and fun!if i haven't mentioned it already, this school is a hotties galore.every girl i know agreed.it is THAT true till the cutie count now stands at more than we can count.my fave part of the day FINALLY came.mass dance! vanessa: "go yati.tell him your partner got lost." Stupid please. aysha came SO close to dancing with the droopy eyed guy and the bright-eyed cutie was next to me but some ogl pulled me out to dance. got so disturbed about not being able to dance with ___ that i forgot to pay attention to him, or the dance.which is why it was pretty surprising when another ogl suddenly turned and told me "you dance very nicely". better not be sarcasm.

oooh.khairul is like a milder version of azhari.khairul to juanita (pointing to me): "what's her name?"
juanita: (looks at me and aysha)
aysha:(after 30 seconds) "yatindu regine."
yeap.that's my mongolian/tibetan name from dear aysha elizabeth.

this is all too fun.

i had to delete the previous post because i realised i didn't mean some things i said. about luke. sigh. why do i care so much? why can't i just walk away?

i had a GRRRREAT first day. i made great new friends,and i mean they're really really great. ooooh ruth was there too. Emily was CRASHING that school. bad mistake, you would think,but I bet she had truckloads of fun too. canteen food was soooo much nicer for a change.
building is vintage to say the least.toilets surprisingly clean. Found a perfect combi=).the ogls...they're really really funny.we played lame games but the people made it fun.stonefockers was the original name of my group. I love it. "OG22!" "Shut up lah!".."OG22!!"Shut Up Lah!".."OG22!!!" "SHUT UP LAH!!!!!!!!!!!" heh. SO FUN.I don't think I'll be skipping school at all. So many eye candies.

"to be or not to be"--->mrs ong,ze principal. don't understand, but ok. i miss you ferlin.

I was getting exasperated with disconnections while trying to count down with syaf and nad.1203.phone rang.pissed. "hello, adek eh?"

what a cutie.AKMAL.that cute lil baby cousin of mine wanted to remind me to tune in to ch5 to watch taufik's i dream.i'm loving this year already.Happy New Year.